Friday, May 24, 2013

Happy Dance!

No happy dance just yet. I would like to share something with you guys first. A lot of you know so much about me and my life...sometimes I think too much! LOL! But that's o.k. I like being me and people accepting me for me. I don't like to change for anyone because then I wouldn't be me...silly, shy, quirky, whimsical, dorky, loving...I can go on and on! =D But there are certain things I don't share about my life and I keep them to myself.  With that said, I would like to share one of those things.  The only reason I am doing this is because God is tugging at my heart; maybe to help someone else.  Oh, and I will also be talking about God because I can't just not mention him. O.k, although I have never gone to the Dr. to be diagnosed, I have depression. Aye, it sounds so dirty! Without getting into to much details, I have suffered with depression for as long as I can remember but I NEVER talked about it to my family or friends until recently. A lot of things have happened in my life since childhood and as I get older it almost becomes easier to just give up. The difference from then to this last time is my closeness to God.  He has been present more now than ever; not because he hasn't been there but because my heart is open to him now. Even with all the the trials and tribulations that I am and will continue to go through, I know at the end, no matter what he is there for me; even when I don't hear him, he is still there. This depression has haunted me throughout my life but this time it's easier to get out of it.  I'm not 100% out of it but it's not as bad as it was before. God has placed so many loving friends who have helped me several times get out of my hole. I thank God for them. You girls know who you are =') I wub you guys!  I will continue to work hard and won't give up...even when I want to sometimes. I just have to be thankful for all the good things that God has placed before me and see the bad things as stepping stones to the good that will come. I need to remind myself of all the good things I do have in my life no matter how small. 

So...did I scare anyone off? Jeejee! Now that I got that off my chest...=) I'm a work in progress and I know I will fall but I will just dust off my knees and keep walking. Booyaaaaa!!!! I ain't scurred!!!! LOL! 

NOW we can do the happy dance! Today was AWESOME! It was just a good day today and that's why I'm doing the happy dance. I also have been crafting again. I have drawn many new Sushi Dolls and have just been motivated! Woot woot! 

These are some of the other things that I have worked on. These first two were done before my deep depression and the last two were done yesterday. 
These are the 'Jee Jee' Sushi dolls I have on sale right now! 

This is a painting I  did a while back.  It's a one of a kind...I'm going to be painting one for me on a 8x10.

This is another drawing. Kind of a self portrait, cartoon style. 

Here is a new 'icon' for my blinki! This was a personal drawing but I might just make her a digital and place "Sushi" on sale...hmm...don't know yet. =)


9 comments:

  1. big *HUGGSIES* wubbie you susi! i looove your new projects too! they are oh-so-fabulous girlee! you rock and i am happy to know you and to be your friend! love ya! *hugs* and much aloha, steph :)

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    1. =') Thank you for being my friend ans showing me so much support. Me wubby you too! Aye,I'm an emotional wreck right now! LOL!

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  2. Fabulous post, Susi! You're definitely on the right track! Thanks so much for sharing from your heart!
    Your new Sushi's are so sweet! So is your new button. I'm going to change the one on my blog!
    Happy weekend to you!...Nancy :o)

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    1. Thank you Nancy! And I feel like I'm on the right track. LOL! Today is one of those days but the difference is God; he is guiding me. =)
      Thank you! And I kinda like it too! LOL! Hope you had a wonderful weekend too!

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  3. I admire your courage to just be you! I think you're great. You are so talented and so generous. Thanks for your courage. I hope and pray that you feel better everyday.

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    1. Thanks so much. Yeah, this is something I have never shared and it was hard to share. You should have seen me. I spent 2 hours typing and erasing! LOL! Thank you for the prayers. I always appreciate them. =)

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  4. Hugs from Toledo. I too am in the same spot. I have been here for a long time. I just can't seem to find my way out. Maybe reading your post will help in my journey.

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    1. Hi Mindy!!!! Yes, it's very hard. For as long as I could remember it has always been easy to stay in my shell and avoid everything and everyone around me...to just shut them out. It would get so bad that I would beg God to just take me home or imagine very dark thoughts because I couldn't handle it. It's difficult but recently my outlook has gotten better. I'm still struggling and I'm far from being out of it but it helps to have him in my heart. I hope and will keep you in my prayers.

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  5. {{{hugs}}} You are doing the right things, congrats...God is faithful and will see you through! I want to share this quote with you, It is a favorite of mine(it is on my blog) Have a fabby week!

    "There is nothing, no circumstance, no trouble, no testing that can ever touch me until, first of all, it has come past God and past Christ right through to me. If it has come that far it has come with a great purpose"
    ~ Alan Redpath

    enjoy *~*

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